I wrote my first ever blog entry on November 20, 2012. It was kind of awesome, honestly, and I was pretty damn proud of it.
Unfortunately, I never actually created a blog on which to post it, and, well, it became yet another project that saw a brief brilliant beginning and then quickly fizzled onto the piles of “could-have-beens” and “oh-yeah-I-was-going-tos” and “remind-me-why-I-started-thats” strewn around me.
Welcome to my absently mindful life.
As an indecisive, ADHD, easily bored woman who also places intense value on living in the present moment, understanding myself, and striving to live a life of thoughtfulness and meaning, the absent-minded and mindful collide frequently in my world. Often this collision creates beautiful displays of fireworks and glitter shot from cannons: frenzied productive work, magical deadline meeting, and imaginative project launches. All too often, the collision is much uglier and much more fraught with struggle–frustration, inertia, and questions without answers.
This year, I’m focusing on mindfulness. Now, don’t get me wrong. I don’t expect to wake up tomorrow in some Zen state of constant in-the-moment, one-with-all harmony. But that’s part of the joy of this mess. I’m going to read more books, play with more ideas, and try out new techniques. I’m going to (try to) laugh when it goes tragically wrong, honor my sadness when necessary, and celebrate when it all goes right.
Maybe eventually simply sitting quietly and breathing will BE the celebration.
So what will this blog be about? I’d love to offer some clear, concise statement here, but if I know anything, it’s that I’m at my best when I’m given space to wander. If I had to guess…
Who knows. Really, if I can remember to stop and think and then put those thoughts into words that actually get posted here, we’ll be off to a very, very good start.
Welcome aboard. Hold on tight–it gets wild in here some days…